Out from under the gun.. for now
Two months.. I still can't believe I wound up working 12 to 15 hour work days at 6 to 7 days a week for 2 months. At what point do you say "Enough is enough"? Its about to start again soon, I can see it. I'm not wanting a perfect job.. I just want one that doesn't ruin my health every few weeks. No job is worth this. I used to say "Well its just a paycheck". Well.. how much is "just a paycheck" worth? My health? My ability to function normally? I don't think so.
On top of that, I've come to the suspicion that these "crisis modes" are being artifically created. You can't have every project that comes along in two calendar years start off being late. Nor can anyone be thick enough to not eventually understand that you can't make a full blown ecommerce site or application in a week "if you just work hard enough". I'm convinced its some attempt to try and get me to voluntarily give up my weekends without them having to outright ask. What a crock.
It robs me of my personal life, it robs me of my time to write, to sleep, and just mentally rest. Its not right.. and I'm not sure its worth it anymore.
On top of that, I've come to the suspicion that these "crisis modes" are being artifically created. You can't have every project that comes along in two calendar years start off being late. Nor can anyone be thick enough to not eventually understand that you can't make a full blown ecommerce site or application in a week "if you just work hard enough". I'm convinced its some attempt to try and get me to voluntarily give up my weekends without them having to outright ask. What a crock.
It robs me of my personal life, it robs me of my time to write, to sleep, and just mentally rest. Its not right.. and I'm not sure its worth it anymore.
posted by Chris Ash | 9:52 AM
2 Comments:
Believe me it is not worth it-the older I get the more I realize that we are here for but a short time. I don't mean to sound morbid but it is a fact. I don't think that we will come to the end of our days and look back and wish that we had worked just one more hour of over-time. Yes, jobs are important. The work we do, I believe, actually has spiritual significance but when we feel that our work is robbing us instead of fulfilling us then we need to re-evaulate. Of course it is possible that you are just tired and might have a different view after a little rest:).
You do have a point about that. I probably sound like a workaholic (quite likely I resemble one right now!), but its a combination of challenge and responsibility that keeps me going. I'm not one to turn down a challenge easily, I'm highly competative and out of a company of 15ish people, I'm the only one who knows how the software works (despite how many times I've tried to share that knowledge with others!!) I know, I know, I've a responsibility to myself as well. But I have trouble ditching one company with the very real thought that I would harm the lives and livelyhoods of 14 families. Who knows.. maybe I'm just overly agressive / competative and just looking at it incorrectly! ;-)
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